it hurts.
it hurts so bad.
such a strange time.
a confusing time.
a time of growth,
redefining,
searching,
discovery,
and so much more.
i wish i could simply fast forward.
move on to the happier chapters.
i hate these parts.
the reality checks.
the forcing of one’s self out of the comfort zone.
i thought i was going to be safe from this for a good while.
but yet i find myself in this little valley yet again.
and so soon.
i have a lot to figure out…
and all the time in the world.
i know that being outside of the comfort zone is great.
but uncomfortable.
and at this particular moment,
it’s painful.
too many emotions are circulating through me.
anger.
abandonment.
sadness.
joy.
but not contentment.
not a notion of being relaxed.
i do not think i will ever again carry the feeling of being content.
and i am not sure yet whether that is a good thing.
or a bad thing..
